I have gotten much more out of it than I would have imagined ( Read more... )

I’m sad this morning. The distance between my wife and me is big. My credit is shit because I have overspent since buying our house and it is causing problems with getting a new second. I am crushed inside somewhere around this money issue. I am fucking afraid of money. Short of wanting to take in more than I spend, I don’t want anything to do ( Read more... )

I suddenly realize that I believe in miracles and that all modes of magical thinking are available to me. The denial has suddenly vanished. Which miracles will I be willing to know? All of life and our very existence are miraculous. I don’t mean that they tend in some way toward the thing that we name miracle, but that life is The Miracle. If ( Read more... )

The truth is that for one man he knows that he is god, the One, and so he embraces all men, all humanity, and even the ants. For another, he knows that he is god, the one, and he embraces greed and destruction of all that is not immediately satisfying to the one that has the thought ( Read more... )

Today was the first day or my SACS (Suicide and Crises Services) training. I was quit surprise at the intensity and the experience ( Read more... )

The comedy of Hierarchy ( Read more... )

Each Buddha realizes that her enlightenment is as much yours and mine as it is hers. Each enlightenment is in fact, a “group” accomplishment. Imagine a vast plane, or maybe an N-dimensional space. Each point is one of us at some moment in our lives. In this space, there is some kind of connectivity, like a photon traveling from one point to ( Read more... )

This was my first night at the suicide prevention line. SACS ( Read more... )

Some other day I was making love with my wife, or I should say preparing to do so -- that foreplay domain. She had her watch on and I asked her to take it off. “I wanted her naked.” I was thinking about this story in the shower this morning and when I first got the idea that I would want a lover naked. I was no more than twelve when I heard a ( Read more... )

My son, P, is growing. He is so ambitious. It is great to see and scary at the same time. I worry that he is over inflated, but I wonder if you can be over inflated at that age. He appears to be having deep insights about his life, about promiscuity and his relationship with his mother. What a great thing to get at a young age. What would I ( Read more... )